It’s been about 2 months since I reached my weight loss goal of losing 120lbs and this feeling is still so surreal. I find myself taking a peek at myself in the mirror often...thinking...is that you? Is that really you! LOL!
Although, it’s been fun shopping for this new, SIZE 10 body...size 10...I wear a size 10? Did you just read that? Did I just type that? Wow! I’m a size 10! Hallelujah! I still find myself thinking in larger sizes.
I find myself still looking in the window of Lane Bryant at the mall and I must remind myself that nothing in there will fit me! What? I’ve shopped there for 20 years! It has been my staple. Just today, I finally unsubscribed from getting emails from Lane Bryant! Yay! Goodbye Lane Bryant...Hello World!
I still take an xl and a large in the dressing room, often. That’s when good girlfriends come in handy. I try on a large and think it fits just fine and never even consider a medium. However, on a recent shopping trip a girlfriend brought a large and a medium dress to the fitting room and softly said, “I brought you a medium too...I don’t know...it might fit.” I think it was her way of saying, “Please try on this medium, that large is just a little too big.” Hmmmm? Ok. Well, guess what it fit! Woohoo! Quite nicely at that.
Getting used to the new me will take time and I’m in it for the long haul.
However, today I say goodbye to 20 years of my life! To 20 years of discomfort!
To PLUS sized clothing, to overeating, to unhappiness! To 20 years of not knowing, not acknowledging, to numbness, to what I thought was comfort.
Today I say GOODBYE to a bit of me.
Necessary Losses,
Tiare
Getting back on track...join me each Wednesday for Wellness Wednesday where I will share a bit of me, my feelings, tips and tricks I’ve learned on this journey.
You are awesome and an inspiration. I love that you're sharing your progress (both strengths and weaknesses) because we always feel alone in our challenges of weight lose into wellness. If I come across someone who is struggling with their weight lose, I will definitely tell them about you!!!
Posted by: Sonia Bey | June 13, 2010 at 04:17 PM
That is awesome . . . YOU are awesome . . . You're a "10" . . LITERALLY! *smiles* xo
Posted by: sherry goodloe | June 12, 2010 at 05:07 PM
congrats!!!
Posted by: Melanie | June 10, 2010 at 03:48 PM
Congratulations ON 2 months of the new "you". Losing 120 pounds is truly, truly AWESOME! It just goes to show if you "say you can", then "YOU CAN"!!!! You are an inspiration to me.
Pat
Posted by: Pat Wimbush | June 09, 2010 at 07:54 PM
This is WONDERFUL!!!! I, too, am taking second glances in the mirror because since Feb, I've lost 4.5 points off that BMI number and 20 pounds. And I am saying goodbye to pills - as I run out, I no longer need to refill them!!! And THAT is truly a welcome goodbye!!!
I am SO proud of you and so proud to be a part of your journey! It has been wonderful, through all of our chats and tears! I would not trade our moments for anything in this world!
Posted by: Cheryl H. | June 09, 2010 at 06:10 PM
Awesome Tiare! I'm trying to get there...slowly but surely. You are my motivation. I read your journey and tell myself, I can do this. Thank you.
Posted by: Susan | June 09, 2010 at 03:39 PM